carry on

Certainly someone, somwehere, will understand these few brief lines. Maybe - probably - you have been in a moment where you find yourself distracted - looking at the sky, talking about something superficial or even only observing what is happening around there and not actually paying atention. Well, I was just to get some coffee, crossing streets while the wind blew the leaves on the sidewalk and the sun was setting on my back, it crossed my mind what a graceful autumn evening that was. The table was keeping four seats to be filled.. When I went to order my coffee - for real, my body begged some to stay awake - I saw that someone. That someone my eyes caught and I couldn't seem to be able to look away.. I am not sure what it was or why it happened, the only thing I knew at that moment was that  I wouldn't forget that face easily. When walking in there, standing and looking at some strawberry and chocolate cake with whipped cream on top, when I looked over my shoulder, there he was in a grey T-shirt, pair of jeans and a smile that could light up the entire room. After that, my thoughts were interely induced to keep dreaming of him while I was still awake. 
Months later, "someone" looked different but hadn't changed a thing. My eyes rested on his and I got lost inside that vast-ocean-blue-gorgeous eyes as I also lost the hability to pronounce a word for a minute.. The talk was preachy and nothing the way my wide-awake-dreams had figured it would be. His voice was soft and gentle, his words were harsh. His eyes were filled with the unknown, and they kept staring at mine. The smile, the one I had mentioned before, that hadn't change. He smiled as if he knew everything going through my mind.. and soul. Sincrely, I had felt nothing but the contempt that awaken us those things we most desire, without knowing. Told myself what a waste of time that had been, not sure if I myself believed that. 
The reasons all had run away, but the feeling never did. It was real and it happened and I can't change that.. Or can I?